It's not like I remember...

Well, so life has pretty much sucked for the last 20 weeks or so. No running, no biking, no swimming, no lifting, no nothing but 12oz curls. I gotta tell you, I prefer 4 hr rides and sore legs to a hangover.
I had a 'consultation' on the 20th of november. The Doc said no running again. I never thought that I would want to run in favor of a night out. Well I split the difference with him. I took another two weeks and I had to start up again. Four miles kicked my ASS! I'm still sore three days later.
The shoulder hurts - ther is still no muscle there. I have along road ahead of me.
I have to ask, how is this possible? I was not that banged up it seemed, but I face a long road. I can't even ride the trainer for more than 15min with out my shoulder screaming.
It is getting better though, at least I can move the arm. I guess it is about 60%. I'm still not sure if I'll ever be able to race Tri again, but I can put the dishes away. And I did run - against doctors orders, but I was losing it.